Meethi

Sometimes you make a friendship just over a smile, a small talk, over a journey and sometimes it takes years and years and yet we are not sure once we depart whether we will remember each other. And we humans are so wired for relationships that we cannot live without them. We humans are classified as social animals we live in a society.

Though we don't value our society and community but truth is we cannot stay without them. So as I always tell you that on saturdays or sundays we have some or other activity so this saturday it was Married couple fellowship and I was again called for baby sitting and this time I was more for technical support as this time we were showing movies to kids on projector but unfortunately the speakers were not working so Neelima di had to narrate the story.

As we must have heard this saying that all great things comes in a small package. I met a new kid 4 years small girl and if you are wondering what does my title mean “yes” its her name Meethi which means sweet. And yes this small girl is very sweet. Any person that met her will tell you the same thing she is so cute and lovely and she have a wonderful quality to make friend with you. Some people have that midas touch that when you meet them they leave you a changed person, and she is such a sweet girl.

I will never forget how quietly she started and playing with me and her brother Jojo also became my friend. And for those few hours I forgot who I was and I became a small kid which I rarely can do. And I played Ring-ringa roses and hide and seek and chicken walk(which was punishment in our school) and many other games.Sometimes best things to do is to become a kid and play with them. I was thinking of their innocence, enthusiasm and unbiased love. Meethi is a very sweet girl and as one of my other friend would say “I am her fan”. They both(Meethi and Jojo) are new kids and sad that I couldn't meet their parents because I am sure they too are lovely people who have brought both of them in such a lovely way.

I could just see world differently from the eyes of Meethi and on sunday Jojo asked me to come with him and showed me some fishes in our club which I would never bother to see. And thats beauty kids are beyond limitations and their enthusiasm is new and they never get bored as we adults get. I mean they have something or other creative way to spend time and energy and we must learn same from them. And I can really says kids are really blessing from God.

On the flip side I live in a very unsafe place where people are doing horrible things against small kids. Rape against minor have taken every headlines of every newspaper I just want to pray for the protection of the innocence and love of this beautiful kids. I pray that no one will violate their trust and enthusiasm. That no one will take benefit of their innocence but rather learn to love and spread the fragrance of love as they do. That we men will think love without lust and we will respect every women as our mother, sister and daughters. I pray God that You my King will stop all this and let Your kingdom come.

Human longing for peace and justice can be satisfied in His kingdom alone.

Thankful Thursday

Dearest Daddy,

I love You God for all things You have done for me and provided undeserving things for me. Specially something I looked from past two and half years employee of the month and also most importantly best team so I agree nothing is impossible for You. You have really blessed the work of our hands and I really thank You for my boss who have been my support and best alliance here. Who have shaped me and helped me to be comfortable here, taught me many things.Thanks for my team who always there to support me and guide me.

But I still stand in crossroads but I trust You, and have full faith that You are always concerned and working from backend. I just want to take this opportunity to spend time in Your feet not just because You have blessed me but also because I want to learn this art of spending time in Your feet for awesome wonder.

I I want to thank You for this job and work. But at the same time I want to pray that I will do my best always not only because I want to get good awards but to glorify You Jesus. I believe every good gift comes from You and I am thankful for it.

I am thankful for Your providence that I purchased a new inverter for home and which I should use wisely and give thanks only to You. I am thankful for the Card with which I make payment but I know ultimately its You who provide for it.

I am thankful for all my friends who have encouraged me and prayed for me even in hard times and stood beside me accepting my failures and not condemning me but loving me and helping to stand again and encouraging to try again.

I am thankful for Anil have started blogging. I will have company in blogosphere and soon Aveek is planning to join the group but God You know how I have tried to escape from it in the name for studying and I am not studying.

I want to pray for my behavior and my struggle for lust of the eyes, lust of the flesh and pride of possession. I want to be holy as You are Holy and I want to be cleansed and purified in the blood of Christ. I want to take the cross and follow You. I want to make this my daily prayer that I will seek Your face alone and nothing shall hinder me from spending time at your feet.

Thankful Son,

Shushant

Hope and forgiveness...

Psalm 130

A song of ascents.

1 Out of the depths I cry to you, Lord;

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2 Lord, hear my voice.

Let your ears be attentive

to my cry for mercy.

3If you, Lord, kept a record of sins,

Lord, who could stand?

4 But with you there is forgiveness,

so that we can, with reverence, serve you.

5 I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits,

and in his word I put my hope.

6I wait for the Lord

more than watchmen wait for the morning,

more than watchmen wait for the morning.

7 Israel, put your hope in the Lord,

for with the Lord is unfailing love

and with him is full redemption.

8 He himself will redeem Israel

from all their sins.

Except Your Words and You I have no hope oh! Lord. What a beautiful Psalm it is and I would say it just describes what my prayer is right now and what I go through most of the times when I fail and I just want to wait for the Lord and His answer. I got this from a fellow blogger who posted about waiting and mentioned this Psalm you can read it here.

I was amazed that how I am not the first who is crying like this and have faith in God who will redeem him. Amazingly the psalmist knows that God forgives in verse 4. He knows that God don't keep record of our sins but if he does who will stand before Him. And the psalmist further says I have no hope in anything else but Lord’s Word. And he is waiting, desperately waiting like a night watchmen for morning. Picture is clear that we are waiting to see that marvellous light we are becoming weary of this darkness around and darkness inside.

Then Psalmist reminds Israel and everyone about God’s unfailing love, We might have failed Him repeatedly but God’s love is unfailing, He simply declares to Jeremiah “ I have loved you with an everlasting love;I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.” (Jeremiah 31:3) And in New Testament John reminds us that God is love and His very nature is to love. Therefore His love gives us that confidence to stand firm, to look towards Him, to love Him, to hear Him and to obey Him. And the Psalmist says that He himself will redeem us and as its written He did it on the cross, He became a man dwelt among us and took our sins and died on the Cross made the payment for all the sins once for all and rose from death and redeemed us and now we are His twice and now we look and hope for His second coming when He will take us with Himself to the place which He prepared for us. I see a greater meaning in all the lines of Psalmist I just couldn't resist myself sharing this with You.

That we have received Forgiveness, unfailing love, redemption, new life and everlasting hope in Christ alone and may we never fail to glorify Him and share this good news with others.

Taking a break...

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    Though when I began my blog I thought I have thousands of ideas to tell you folks but soon after a month I feel exhausted and some time I find myself devoting too much just to blog but if I want to remain in blogosphere I must by choice give time to it. But I want to be honest with you people and right now I think I am in a phase where writing( the thing I love a lot) have become a serious business for me and I am not able to give proper time to it which is really very frustrating for me. I am not able to give time because of many reason but mainly because I want to study for my exams which are in the month of June. But there after as well I have to be well planned and disciplined to write meaningful and engage with lots of new bloggers friends.

    So I am praying that God will help me to manage and engage in blog later on, right now my primary priority is Quiet time with God and my studies and there are other responsibilities which we will have for lifetime. Not that I really don't have time or something, truth is I am not able to manage all things at a time. I have to slow down because I am not competing anyone and I know you guys will be faithful and can have patience if I post rarely or even after a month. I know many bloggers they blog once in a month but I love to write so I suppose once I am back I will try to keep up the race and blog in a flow but till then pray for me that I will prepare well and come up with lot of energy and enthusiasm and try to tell you better stories and things going in my life and God leads me to tell you and also my letters to God and other things that I have in my small mind.

    Till then I am sorry i will keep you waiting....

What is good in Good Friday

    Before knowing the good, should not be the question what is bad? And then I tell you why it is good. We have always said that gospel, The Message of Christianity is referred as Good news but there must be something bad for which we are telling this good news. What is bad that we need a good news. I am not at all saying that good is dependent on bad but we must know the question in order to give an answer.

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    What is Bad? Everything we did, or simply one word Sin. what is sin, is it something in our action, our thoughts, something evil like breaking laws of God. Or sin have many faces and degrees and what are effect of sin. Sin is a system or a problem? Mystery? Does it really matters? So many questions come when we talk about sin.

Sin according to me is simply separation something that have separated us from God. Adam the first man disobeyed God and brought death as per the Word of God “You are free to eat from any tree in the garden; but you must not eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, for when you eat from it you will certainly die.” Genesis 2:16-17 We all know the story of Original sin don't we? Please read the Bible if you don't have one, you can read more about it here.

And indeed we were separated from God starting from the moment our forefather ate the forbidden fruit. And after that separation all problems like decay came to existence, we were under the curse of decay and evil. From that moment we became slaves to sin, and we all fall short to the glory of God. Look into your heart carefully and you will find all your desires to be desperately wicked and evil. All your actions moving away from God and His laws, some of us we even doubt whether God exists or not and this disbelieve is the greatest sin of all.

    Whenever I write about Sin no matter what all write we cannot get the depth and burden that is caused by Sin. But I can give you some hint though by some words I am using here. And all things which are evil, malice, not good, leading to death because fruit of sin is death and once you have tasted it you are slave to it and you know what unfortunately we are born sinner, therefore there is no excuse from sin. And you can pay nothing as ransom for this sin. No man was able to pay for his sin because we fall short to the glory of God.(Psalm 49:7-9) And think of that situation where you are in pain, disease, under burden of Sin. Fear of death haunting you day and night and you are stuck in this vicious circle of sin. Sin is the Bad news and in there is no remedy with human for this?   

Then will the man live or if I put it in the words of Job in the bible  he says “If a man dies, shall he live again?” Job 14:14 but then We have God who is mighty to save and who loves us and what is Good news. Good news is that God became Man and He made dwelling among us and His name is Jesus. Yes, Son of God Jesus who was born to save us. Romans 5:8 says:  “but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” and 1 Peter 3:18 says “For Christ died for sins once for all, the righteous for the unrighteous, to bring you to God. He was put to death in the body but made alive by the Spirit.” And not only this if we say what Prophet Isaiah says in (Isaiah 53:4-5) :

“Surely he took up our pain

   and bore our suffering,

yet we considered him punished by God,

   stricken by him, and afflicted.

5 But he was pierced for our transgressions,

   he was crushed for our iniquities;

the punishment that brought us peace was on him,

   and by his wounds we are healed.”

And verse 10 says

“Yet it was the Lord’s will to crush him and cause him to suffer,

   and though the Lord makes his life an offering for sin,

he will see his offspring and prolong his days,

   and the will of the Lord will prosper in his hand.”

Its Christ who was crucified for us on this friday, the death, cruel death of the innocent man just for you and me. Who bore our sins. Because men was eternally separated and condemned because of sin and helpless and would have died in his sins but its for God and His love that He gave His only begotten Son so that who shall ever believe in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.

You must have heard many times that Salvation is free, but if you think properly the saying there is nothing called free thats true there is nothing called free. Yes salvation is called free just because you cannot pay for and no one can pay for it except God. As Jesus says “What is impossible with man is possible with God” Luke 18:27.    

And lastly I will remind you that Jesus was crucified for us, he paid for our sins, He was killed and buried in the tomb but let me remind you He didn't remain in the tomb for more than three days He rose again and I must remind you what He said : because I live, you will live also.(John 14:19). He is not the God of dead but of living. He is a living God and its His promise because He lives we(Whoever believes in him John 3:16) will live. Indeed this is a good news and therefore we call it a Good friday!

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A selfmade man

You must have heard this from lot of people’s mouth that they have chose their own lifestyle and whatever they are they made it. They were independent and took no help from anyone to grow and they have toiled day and night to chase their custom made dream and have reached there alone.

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Before meeting Christ I was same, because of my lifestyle and my story you read that how I was born with silver no spoon in my mouth and how my mom and I survived those hard times. And then I was sent to a hostel where they fed me only one thing that no one stands for you and you have to make your own destiny with your own hands. An old greek thought that comes to my mind is “God only help them, who help themselves” therefore we must help ourselves. Lets decide what I want to and let no one tell what I should do? Those are the lines you must have heard many times.

Slowly something within me was telling me my way is the right way. I have the ability to chose, decide, create my own destiny. I was greedy and I wanted everything. I was utterly selfish and always thought what benefit I can get out of anything and everything. Nothing absolutely nothing bothered me until my ego, my comfort, my pleasure, my job, my freedom was not hurt. The moment you come between any of those I will start getting made and try to run away or change the situation anyhow and mostly I have found myself running away.

I chose my comfort in all situations even if I have to pay a cost of my Mom’s hardship or at expense of anyone else; I always enjoyed and tried to forget everything. I was irresponsible all the times and never took responsibility of anything including my life because I never thought about others therefore I never drew a line between right and wrong because for me everything that favors me is right and everything that contradicts my thoughts are wrong. And I was proud, very proud of my worldly wisdom( my world created by I, me and myself where I was the king and I was the subject), of my thoughts and rules, of my rebellious and different nature, of my achievements and all things I ever knew. And in that proud I forgot there is world outside me. For me my world was revolving around me.

I was trapped there, because sometimes I had questions and difficulties when I tried to involve in others live or they tried to peep in. For me to come out of my world and submit to theirs was difficult because I had to be vulnerable for same. There I lack the quality of being relational and understand relationships with other people because I don’t knew how to love. Because to love means to be vulnerable and I was trapped in my world and never allowed some to come in. Because some where I was afraid that you know if I take their help later they should not say that we helped him to reach there; after all I am and I want to remain a selfmade man. I don’t want to depend on anyone no matter for good or bad, I will make my destiny by hook or crook. I am independent, rebellious person, and there is a big banner on my head I am a selfmade product please don’t try to change and challenge. In the race of going up I blamed, screamed, adjusted, moved, and did all sought of things just to prove that I am me!

Sometime I just wanted to be unique and for being unique and to get some attention I will to weird and offbeat things? And sometime they will be like doing things without asking anyone I still have those habits, like reading between the lines, doing extra things, reading the extra page and being smart and stuff which will always attract trouble and then I will curse myself doing so. Sometimes being unique doesn’t mean that you are right. Sometime it should be plainly accepted that you are stubborn and rebel and don’t want to give away your title of selfmade man and want to rejoice I did it! I did it! But sooner or later you understand even if you reach at top or achieve the success you run for when you will see back there will be no one around to whom you will be telling the story and saying I did it! Its me the selfmade man! There will be no one except I, me and myself?

Time is ticking......

                  

    Is it me, or it is for real? Recently lying on my bed I was thinking of my childhood days. When we had a holiday the day at home was so long I could enjoy the weather in morning, roam around the markets, play with friends, seat and chat with parents and relatives. And after that too I use to long for the day to finish soon. And I use to long to grow big so that I am allowed to go here and there and now that I am grown up I go nowhere. But now today the days run so fast I have to be intentional to stop and really have to take time to enjoy and cherish such moments like enjoying the weather, roaming around freely without any plans. Before I use to long to finish the day, now I long that day stays for longer. I have juggled even to sit and write something like this.

    When we call and meet people we say oh! Hows life been? I have rarely heard from someone that they are free? Everyone is busy from kids, to parents, from youth to elders; everyone is busy in something or other. I don’t know we are busy in what, doing what, what are we running after?

    Before we use to pass the time but now time is passing us. But if I really think little deeper the time has really never changed. It’s we who have changed. It’s our priority, our responsibility, our availability, our way of managing things, our lifestyle this are the factors which makes us bound to things sometimes unnecessarily. We have become slaves to the things, technologies, products, vehicles, virtual world which we created to make things easier. But now they are consuming us rather serving us.

    We should really give priority to people and the things we love, so that we really cherish every single moment of our life rather crying and begging for time everywhere. We should be less dependent on things and people, so that we use our own brain and body to enjoy rather than just doing the thing. Do we understand the worth of time in our lives? My friend was recently asking everyone how many hours do we sleep because he wanted to analyze how many hours are productive in our life. Thinking of it I was reminded that my sports teacher always use to say that half of our lives are spent sleeping, then rest few in eating, and dressing up and other daily routine we follow and so conclusions comes to that we have very limited time on earth and its important to realize how we are spending it?

    What does the Psalmist have to say on this, Psalm 90:10 “The years of our life are seventy, or even by reason of strength eighty; yet their span is but toil and trouble; they are soon gone, and we fly away.” And verse 12 says “So teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom.” It’s a reminder to us that we do not have eternity here on earth; therefore we should be wise and listen to God and gain wisdom from Him and use our time wisely, according to His will. And we are not slaves to anything because Jesus, only Son of God has set us free and if the Son has set us free indeed we are free. We are free from bondage and any kind of slavery but we are not freed to sin again if we look carefully its been demanded that our actions will change no longer do we live in same old patterns but now we live for the glory of God, as children of God. Carefully living as salt and light unto the world, reminding them of the Judgment day but by love we preach and live the gospel to save as many as possible.