Porn chat with mind....

    We all know that Christian journey is a spiritual warfare its battle between spiritual realm. Its also a battle within the mind, a battle between flesh and spirit. So I am trying to capture or to put down one of my most common battles as below. Here the battle is regarding the temptation to watch porn and to respond to it mentally, physically and spiritually. So flesh represents the mind set on the flesh and spirit is the one where mind is set on spirit.

Source: Google, war in mind

    * Flesh is also listening to the enemy thats devil and its believing and quoting a lot of lie. Our task here is to learn what is the lie and what is truth, many a times I give in and many a times the flesh takes over and those are the moment you will see the spirit giving in but there are time when Holy Spirit will guide and therefore our focus should be on main truths I have tried to highlight but be careful, to make this very realistic I have many times used words for spirit which appears as if what flesh is telling is right and thats the trap so here our task is to figure that out what is wrong and what is right.

flesh: Hey see I need to do this, its common as you have the hunger for food, similar there is urge for for some skin to skin moments, lets watch some naked girls.

spirit: Why are you hindering me, you know thats not right thing to do?

Flesh: why is it not right to do so?

Spirit: because in the process of doing this I am sinning against God and against every that person I will lust after by allowing myself to fall in the trap of lust and then giving into wrong thoughts, spiritually being separated from Him and then mentally whatever great thoughts were coming will crash and just think about the images and skin as you talk about and then my body will heat up and so on.....

flesh: but just think of all the past when you have done that haven't you felt so good. And you are saying as if you are saint you never watched porn and never did wrong things

spirit: yes, I  know you very well you accuser I have done all this in past but God forgave me

flesh: so He will forgive you this time as well

spirit: He will I know about His forgiveness, do not teach me about His precepts

flesh: ok, lets not get there but think of the aroma, the perfect figure, the pleasure

spirit: oh, yes you are right i know what you are talking about, it just feels so good. Dont remind of those things it just makes me think of it more

flesh: yes, yes think how those pictures of perfect figure calls you, saying see us more

spirit: No, wait where are we going?

Flesh: we are going in right direction, bodies, aroma, sex.....

spirit: oh, yes sex isnt bad i can talk about it

flesh: You are right its not bad its good think of all the pleasures, think of the drive, think of new styles, think of new ways, think of new bodies, think of that......

spirit: wait, wait what are you talking, you are arousing wrong thoughts in my mind. Lust is not a good pleasure.

source: Google images

Flesh: Lust, who said we are talking about lust here I never mentioned about lust. Lust is like stealing, or like coveting but you know this porn websites are not those things because they are available because skin show is good and people care and understands the drive of sex and they are just serving the society for good

spirit: ya, I think so...

flesh: remember those smiles and those laughing pictures you get see, do you think even a bit they are tortured or forced to do such things, no! They like to do such things why are you so bothered that they will feel bad if we do so. In fact they do such things for us and expect us to do for them thats all. As you watch a tv actor and appreciate his skills, why not watch porn and appreciate their bodies

spirit: no(falling in the trap)

Reality check: All the porn and all the glamour we see is a real lie. A truth is many girls, women, children are forced to do this under some kind of threat. Mostly they are slaves of this mafias who get lot of money for this acts. And another shocking but real truth is this few are homemade videos made by teenagers like you and me who enjoy porn, with their girlfriends and posted here on the websites. Again it can be anyone who have sent their naked picture just to show to their boyfriends and they broke the trust and uploaded and therefore do not live in the delusion that pictures you see are of those people who want to be naked, who celebrate sex as sports. But think because we purchase and see such stuff, the rate of child trafficking is increased everyday and we know the results of porn are so bad like gang rapes, sexual abuse within or outside marriage, adultery, prostitution, trafficking and many other crimes. Also its not to be taken lightly as this leads to some very serious crimes many studies and interview have shown that one thing that is common between the worst criminals that is to watch porn and have the mindset similar to it.

Source: Google. Say no to porn

flesh: so why bother, they are doing it because they like, they like to show and we like to see

spirit: but wait its not mere what they think about it, its more what I think and what God thinks about it

flesh: but you are not indulging in it, its just a bird's eyeview, all I am asking you is to appreciate the beauty of flesh, if you don't appreciate that, it will go vain. Will animals appreciate that

spirit: Our bodies are not objects to be used or played with but they are the temple of living God

flesh: Ah! Again the saint inside you have raised and is hindering you in the process

there is a gap and as the person is trying to juggle around. Then suddenly a strong sense of urge comes or lets say thought flows in mind about sex and urge of it.

Flesh: come on, now see you are having the urge for it, don't suppress it otherwise all your so called balanced life will be hindered

spirit: are you telling the truth...

flesh: come on! Dont you know yourself when we suppress something what will happen

spirit: it will keep piling up and then blow into disaster

# Reality Check: However, its really true that everyone gets thoughts and feelings and if we dont deal with them properly they can really keep getting piled up and keep disturbing you or maybe sometime become burden and weigh you down badly. It can be any thought that leads you for certain feeling and then repeated feelings will bring you at a stage of emotion called lust and therefore you will be lust-blinded and thus more vulnerable than before and easy trap for the enemy. Therefore rather than ignoring the feelings face them, replace the negative thoughts with the Truth which is the Word of God.

flesh: you know what the more you resist such thing, more they will pile up. So live for the moment and indulge

spirit: I think so....

flesh: no thinking around, its the moment don't lose it, its natural everyone must react to every urge you have, its your body if you don't give it what it want, it will collapse?

Spirit: Is it? Just live for a moment. Wait a second its a clear lie, you know very well this body is temporary but not me, I am eternal and therefore moment by moment I does really matter. And what I will do now will also effect in long term.

flesh: come on, it's like starving ... How many days have passed you have kept this holy fast

spirit: says nothing....

flesh: (reminding of a previous episode where I failed) do you remember of the last time when we did this, oh it was so perfect, what a perfect piece it was

spirit: See, this is the problem when we are watching porn a good human being is just treated or seen as piece, a body.Where as we clearly know the Scripture clearly says that your body is a temple of Living God. Keep it holy! Arent you making me a fool? Dont you want me just to be a slave

spirit: (speaking to God) Deliver me from this as its too hard and you know I almost gave in above, Abba! Give me Your Holy Spirit to fight this

Momentarily there is an escape as the person prayed. But after some time,

flesh: So now lets just forget everything, you are so tired of running here and there dont you want to treat yourself with something refreshing

spirit: Yes, I really think the same

flesh: what about some porn!

Spirit: resisting very hard. No, not porn

flesh: no, you don't have to see porn, maybe just read about it, or maybe better just have a look to that naked bodies

spirit: but I don't think this is a good idea

flesh: come on, you are tired now, stop thinking of good and bad. Lets just focus on fun we can have, I am sure God is not against fun

spirit: definitely not

# Reality Check: The truth is that God is not against pleasure infact if we are careful the Scripture says that all good pleasures are at His right hand and that gives me confidence that certainly God is not against pleasure.Its not that God is moral monster who stands with a stick to punish you but certainly He gave us law to protect and provide for our own safety and for our own good. He says not commit adultery(later Jesus explains even looking at a woman lustfully is commiting adultery) simply because we are made in His image and our lives are sacred and we dont have right to violate the sacredness at any cost.

I am sure it was great learning and a great chat, if you want to clarify please comment. Or even if you have similar struggle or want to write down what is the chat that goes between your flesh and spirit please do share with me, who knows I might want to put it up here on my blog only if you allow me. Even if you want to suggest something please share your thoughts....