Red glasses

A journal entry of recent past:

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I am influenced or I am suffering from some disease I can see red everywhere. Jag lal! Lal Lal lage hai mujhko(The world appears Red! Red and only Red to me). The red here means arts, creativeness, design, beauty, colors, music in everything. It seems that creative people are always wearing this glasses, I feel like sometimes I choose to wear this glasses all the time but something within me just forces me to pretend and take those red glasses out and see everything normal and boring, monotonous and as they are dull.

   So the question is always asked is there beauty in the flower or the eyes who sees and appreciate it. The dawn and dusk are always the same, why is it some days we just love to gaze at it and other time we are busy cursing it and minding our own business.

   I am extraordinarily happy today and all because of music and the red glasses which I choose to wear. I waited patiently, took break from all the corporate greys and see the red within everything. I stopped and thought what the song meant, why the singer is so happy or sad. What is he feeling? What does he mean? I saw the ceiling and asked myself what was the architect thinking when he made this? I saw the pattern all square and asked he must be very organised person. I spoke to my friend and while speaking I observed weird background at my cafeteria and I thought those buildings what do they mean to me and what was the original idea behind putting it here and why it doesn't bother people who don't like, or they don't say anything because they don't care about it? ;-) I love the fonts I use in my Open office called “Joti one”. I love my phone which allows me to take random photos. I am very happy that I have pencil to draw. I am happy that I can make funny letters. I am happy for my job which allows me to sit on a computer and internet and learn so many things.

  

I don't know why I keep giving excuses and saying that I don't have time for arts even knowing well thats truly colorful me. I say a movie long back called Mars needs Moms where supervisor have deceived the martians to believe in a lie and have made things very programmed and runned only with instructions and very less of emotions are seen, they are not allowed to live as families and there is nothing called as love and arts. People are just living under orders, under strict manners. And everything is straight line and programmed which reminded me of other movies like Wall-E and Equilibrium where the Directors have tried to show the struggle between the emotions vs programs(reasoning). One hand in equilibrium emotions are illegal and in wall-e people have forgot what does it mean to live without gadgets and what it emotion really means and they don't talk, they don't love, they don't nurture relationships and I love the way Wall-e the weird robot changes everything. And in Mars Needs Mom how Ki is that person who is fond of arts but she pretends to be just like others and I find myself always doing like that. But later she recognises the lie of the supervisor and rescues everyone. I feel like ki and wall-e most of the times.(I love the tagline of Wall-e After 700 years of doing what he was built for - he'll discover what he's meant for.)

one of my sketch

   I don't know if all this make sense to many of you folks but this is what goes on in my mind whenever I hear the word “WEIRD”. I live in my own world. The colorful world, I fall down, I sing, I dance and I appreciate even small and minute arts in all things. I am sure you can see the world with a different lens if you want you can borrow my red glasses and try to see world differently.

And I remember what Word of God says:

Though the fig tree does not bud

   and there are no grapes on the vines,

though the olive crop fails

   and the fields produce no food,

though there are no sheep in the pen

   and no cattle in the stalls,

yet I will rejoice in the Lord,

   I will be joyful in God my Savior.

The Sovereign Lord is my strength;

   he makes my feet like the feet of a deer,

   he enables me to tread on the heights. Habakkuk 3:17-19

Blessed Monday-Thankful for small things....

Dear Dad,

Sometimes I take life and all the blessings for granted but today I want to take some time out and think parallel what's there in life to be thankful for. So we will start from the beginning of the day. Weather is playing tricks it have began to be cold in the mornings and the evenings and mildly pleasant with sunlight all the day, winters just reminds me of soup and hot drinks. Thank God for the seasons, I would have not enjoyed the variety of foods and clothing. It would have become monotonous if seasons were not there? Ever thought that way? So I am thankful for the day and night and different seasons and especially for the weather I enjoyed today.

I want to thank God for toothpaste the first need to freshen up, otherwise your mouth will stink ;-) Then for hot water. Nothing beats hot water bath and then for soap and shampoo for their color’s smell and ingredients which keeps my hair and skin healthy. Thanks God for all this small things that you provide for my hygiene.

Then I am very thankful for clothes that keep me warm in this chilly winter. Also allows me to flash colorful jackets and cool cap to wear. And thank You Daddy as I am an Indian and we Indians love colors. I enjoy being colorful, monochrome is not just boring but dull as well. Then I am thankful for nice home which protects me, which gives me small place where I can lie down peacefully and do my household chorus, eat food, meet people. Not just four walls but a lively place to live with lovely mom and brother.

I am thankful for my mom and brother who are always there to love me. Hug me, cuddle me and that makes my heart just so warm and no matter what I go through they are always just standing beside me. Sharing all the pains and all the joys. We have all things common and equally we share all things. Its indeed a blessing to have a loving family who is determined to serve You. Thank You Dadda for such a sweet, sharing, caring and most importantly loving family. We are determined to love You and serve You.

I am thankful for the small plants in my small home and thank you for stray cute kittens making voices all the times. For the stray dogs who comes every now and then just to say hello and grab some food. I am thankful for this little favor we get from this animals at least they don't fight you, shout at you or judge you, look down at you. Hahah... funny it is.

I am thankful for the work and my Ubuntu system at work, which just helps me work better. I am thankful for the excel sheets where I can put formulas and have fun with cells. I am thankful for the internet by which we are connected to the world and the ocean of knowledge and fun just a click away. I am thankful for my phone which I got as a gift (sometimes I forget and I think I am owner of it, sometimes I am too afraid to call anything “my” or “its mine”). Mobile which helps me to connect with bunch of my crazy friends who like share crazy things with me. We all do something crazy and we respect craziness and mostly celebrate this craziness and boast of the bonding over it.

I am thankful for the hot cup of coffee my office provides. The drink is not mere a drink but its a dangerous intoxicant yet does have lot of positive things. I like the aroma of this coffee and it keeps me from sleeping in office ;-) Also gives me a boost to stay alive and work. But mostly I am ignorant of this small things for this drink and all but then I am taking time out today to be thankful. Whether I realize or not, this small things make my day. So I am thankful for all this small things.

I am thankful for the songs that I can hear through internet because I believe music have its own magic which makes me forget all the blues of the world and stress of anything. It just takes me to a different world and the soothing music and soothing voices of the singers makes me think what a talent God you have given to all the singers. And different music instruments which makes total symphony, I cannot imagine how a conductor(master or chief musician) just by movements of his hands every group of musicians makes a different mood and a different symphony. I cannot fathom this earthly music what will happen when reach the place where angels worship You day and night.

I am thankful for the phone call from an old friend staying far away in Kerala whom I never met face to face but know only through help of phone. What a sweet music to ears to hear  voice of a good old friend. Sometimes its all that you want to do. Daddy, I am thankful for it is You who gives us good friends and the love and the strong bond of friendship.

As I always says there so many things I can just go on and on which makes me thankful and make me feel how rich I am. It humbles me and reminds me that every good gift comes from You. I am blessed and thankful for all things I have missed to take note of.

Thanking You,

Your loving son,

Shushant

Being thankful

Hi, all I have missed writing posts and have hardly noticed my blog from long time but that is just because I am busy at work and other stuffs but I will still try to come back and keep writing on and off. Of course writing is not my fulltime job but its something I am burdened to do.

    Today I am simply to going to share why I am thankful as I do on my thankful thursday posts.

# I am thankful to know that I am not alone, God is always with me.

# I am thankful to know that He is always listening to me and answering my smallest prayers

# I am thankful He is right beside me when I feel to give up

# I am thankful for the unconditional love that He demonstrates, inspite of my regular failures He never gives up on me

# I am thankful for the work I am doing, indeed its God’s blessing

# I am thankful that I was privileged to attend CPE seminar by Pastor Alok Benjamin and you can check more about his Ministry here http://www.meeknessandtruth.in

# I am thankful for I can worship God, talk about Him freely

# I am thankful for the forgiveness that I need everyday to cleanse myself and move on

# I am thankful for the Word of God which helps us to have daily spiritual nourishment

# I am thankful for my office is shifted to new place and I am working on 20th floor for the first time, it was something I dreamt of (though I think, why I dreamt such a dream)

# I am thankful for all the provision in my life from food, clothing and shelter and all other basic need

# I am thankful for the changes I see in my life

# I am thankful for the process and pain I am going through in this change

# I am thankful for my blog and for blog readers as they encourage me a lot by reading and commenting here

# I am thankful for the internet, books, music, stationery like pencil and pen that I can write

# I am thankful for the busyness and yet in that I can take time to thank God

    But most of all I am thankful for the hope I have in Jesus’ second coming, because I am weary and falling apart and I just want to go home. But yet not my, let Your will be done.

Letter to God: Thanks

Dearest Father/Abba,

I love You Daddy and thank You for everything You have done for us. Today I just want to thank You for the blessings You have given to me.

I am thankful for the love that is bubbling out of my heart by being overwhelmed in the love of God, feeling undivided heavenly peace. Which I think no money, no pleasure, no hard work/toil would have given me. I am reminded of Psalms 23 every word of the beautiful Psalm has come true in my life.

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Sometime its not words, sometimes its not images, not visions, not music, not any event yet you feel super excited and you know in your heart that God is great and doing great things for you. Thank You Dadda for all this You are doing in my life. May I continue to walk in Your ways and experience this heavenly peace and joy which is everlasting because of You. The grace and mercy which are new everyday in my life.

I am thankful for the Friends. Friends who makes our lives so vibrant, colorful, musical and eventful. Without them life would be meaningless and we would have no one to share, care, fight, talk, love, help and to make team. Thank You for young friends as they challenge me with new questions, they take me to dimensions I never thought. Thankful for same aged friends who are like the iron sharpening us. Thankful for elder friends who are guide and torch bearers, examples for us. I pray for all of them, they are truly blessing from You and our companions here in Alien land.

I am thankful for the beautiful Church and leaders who take care of us as good shepherds following Your footsteps. Thanks for the Vision and Mission You have given to our Church.Thank You for such sweet families God. Once upon a time I felt like an orphan but Your word repeatedly have said “I will take care of widows and orphans” even You command us to “take care of widows and orphans” and I have seen that Church is really that family which loves us and takes such care for us. I am thankful for this community and I am thankful that I am also part of this Church. Thankful to know that Jesus is Head of our Church and we believe strongly in Your words and that is our authority.Thankful for meaningful activities of Church which is there for us and all Church members. I am thankful for Youth meetings, Fasting prayers, BTCL, House groups and specially for retreats and Camps.

I am thankful for the Gospel Music.Which have made my day, I generally don't indulge in music, but if its praising and glorifying You, I can't just hold back, I am overwhelmed and awestruck to know such Awesome God. I serve the God who created Heavens and the Earth. I am thankful for my blog and privilege that I can write and share my thoughts. Thankful for fellow bloggers who are always there to encourage. I am thankful for my job, though I am praying that I will get some more work to do. I am thankful that I have completed half a decade working in gurgaon and it was joyful for me. Because when I came here, I was a small little boy afraid to stay alone and now God have blessed me so much that I am turned to be a blessing for my family as I take care of my mom and Rohan(my younger brother) what privilege it is to with a loving and God fearing family. Who stands besides you, love you and takes care of you. Thanks Daddy for making me responsible person who now knows what does it mean to be a son of God, and also to follow law not out of compulsion but in love, knowing well that Your laws are perfect and which provides and protects us.

Your laws are love letters guiding me to walk, grow, think, love and live as You desired for us. Thanks for the freedom we have in You, knowing well who we are and for what we are.Thanks for the Bible which we can study, learn and a way to speak to You, to know You. Teach us oh! Lord to walk unto Your ways which leads to righteousness and eternal life.

Your Loving Son,

Shushant

Thankful Thursday: Simplicity

Sometimes I have simply prayed for a simple life. So that I can simply live my simple life. Where I am content and happy every moment where sacrifice is not very painful, so that life is not a drudgery even for a short while. So that I am mentally, physically and spiritually resting in God. By resting I mean no anxiety, no worries, no hurry, no tensions and no hustle and bustle.

Sometimes finding peace in city like gurgaon becomes very hard. We city people think of vacation for peace of mind for change. We don't enjoy the daily rush to office, daily overburdened tasks at office, long queues of cars and stuck in traffic, horrible power cuts, water drainage issue, rent issue, shifting issue, small fights over everything and gurgaon life gives so much of everything that you lose your peace very easily. But I remember that God says no matter what I will give you peace and rest just come to Me all you heavy and burdened. Sometimes we might ask God can you do a miracle and send me out of this town or most of impatient people like me sometimes do a weird request like God I know You and I am in safe zone can I come Home now (thinking like an immature kid).

But God I know that You have plans for me, and thats the reason I am in gurgaon and there should be no other good reason to be here. I know You brought me Here for purpose and unless its accomplished I will be here, whether I understand it or not, whether I like or not. I have called Him my Lord and my Master, I must obey. But God in midst of all this, I just thank You for all good things You have added in my life. For answering my prayer of a simple life. What a joy it is to be simple, teach me God not to be greedy and to be content with what I have.

Thank You God for 9:30 to 6:30 job, job where I enjoy working and look to work for You alone. God thank You for Your body, the local church who is more like a family to me, for my Mom and Rohan, then for my best friends and colleagues who are my extended family. Thank You God for Holy Spirit who is always with me, inspiring me, encouraging me, praying and interceding for me, loving me and being there for me. Thank You God for the cycle to travel, Oh! What a joy it is to ride it( only sports activity for me). Thank You for my boss and my office. Thank You for the governance who is taking care of the city. Thank You for all civil services people, thank You for the cobblers, for milkmen, for Hair cutters, for mall workers, for ice-cream sellers, for gardeners, for shopkeepers. For every single people on the street helping us to live a luxurious life. Thanks for helping us through all of them. May God bless all the people here, and strengthen us so that we can preach the good news to them and show them the love of Christ which we received freely for spreading it freely.

Thanks for making us simple and blessing us with simple life, but do I want to settle here, no I am not citizen of this place, my Hope and my eyes are set on You and for eternity. You my Rock, my salvation, my Redeemer, my lover for You alone I am alive and in You I find meaning of my life. May I always abide in You and in You alone and bear fruits for You.

Thankful Thursday

Dearest Daddy,

I love You God for all things You have done for me and provided undeserving things for me. Specially something I looked from past two and half years employee of the month and also most importantly best team so I agree nothing is impossible for You. You have really blessed the work of our hands and I really thank You for my boss who have been my support and best alliance here. Who have shaped me and helped me to be comfortable here, taught me many things.Thanks for my team who always there to support me and guide me.

But I still stand in crossroads but I trust You, and have full faith that You are always concerned and working from backend. I just want to take this opportunity to spend time in Your feet not just because You have blessed me but also because I want to learn this art of spending time in Your feet for awesome wonder.

I I want to thank You for this job and work. But at the same time I want to pray that I will do my best always not only because I want to get good awards but to glorify You Jesus. I believe every good gift comes from You and I am thankful for it.

I am thankful for Your providence that I purchased a new inverter for home and which I should use wisely and give thanks only to You. I am thankful for the Card with which I make payment but I know ultimately its You who provide for it.

I am thankful for all my friends who have encouraged me and prayed for me even in hard times and stood beside me accepting my failures and not condemning me but loving me and helping to stand again and encouraging to try again.

I am thankful for Anil have started blogging. I will have company in blogosphere and soon Aveek is planning to join the group but God You know how I have tried to escape from it in the name for studying and I am not studying.

I want to pray for my behavior and my struggle for lust of the eyes, lust of the flesh and pride of possession. I want to be holy as You are Holy and I want to be cleansed and purified in the blood of Christ. I want to take the cross and follow You. I want to make this my daily prayer that I will seek Your face alone and nothing shall hinder me from spending time at your feet.

Thankful Son,

Shushant

Letter To Daddy on Birthday

Dear Daddy,

    I love you and I am thankful for you created me with your loving hands on this day 23 years before and send me to this earth with a purpose. A purpose which I seek everyday. But more important is that I have choice to either live for you or for myself or something else. But You chose me, loved me, gave me free will to chose.

    That Your Son died for me, my best Friend who came to earth took the form of man and lived among us and because of whom we are called Your sons.I am so thankful for this live and so thankful to know You. To know that You delight in me and dwelling in me. I am shameful but honest to say I have failed You again and again and still failing You. But O! Lord I am thankful for You have never ever given up on me.

    You said seek the Kingdom of God first and rest will follow. I want to make this simple prayer on this birthday that may I always seek Your face and Your kingdom. May I always dwell on Your love, word and care. Your presence is the most important thing in my life. You have made covenant with us that You will never leave us nor forsake us, so I don't have to worry You leaving me but I am concerned about my choice. But Your love and Your loving presence compels me to repent of my everyday sins and delight in Your holiness cleansed in the blood of Jesus. I feel very bad when I fail you, but I am very weak to overcome everything in my strength therefore I need You. I need You everyday, above all things, above all the pleasures and demands of my life I need You. How often I have missed to come in Your presence and thus have failed and cried for committing mistakes on those periods.

    Thank You for the gift You give me everyday the bright morning light from sun, cool air refreshing and keeping me alive, for the night and dim light of moon, the flowing water, fire for warmth and cooking, shelter and clothes, for fruits and flowers of various kinds, so vast that I know only handful of them. For people for their love, care and affection. For the nature and its creative design. For physics, science, maths, geography, history and all that our minds and can comprehend and beyond we can imagine. I see vastness of Your love and knowledge in all things around me and I wonder You made this all to show that You love us, You are the greatest Artist I have ever known, only difference is You give life to your arts and not only life but free will and choice and You love us with our shortcoming and rebellious nature.

    I am afraid to complain against any single thing because Your plans and Your thoughts are perfect and beyond my comprehension. Whenever I am still I just know that You love me and that gives me a peace which surpasses all the understanding. I am just awestruck and looking for words to praise You. All my praise words are small for Thee. All my descriptions of thee are smaller than the shadow of Your majestic glory. And Your promise that I will spend eternity with Thee, gives me eternal hope. That Jesus will come back and take me with Him. Sometimes I am fed up of myself but You have never give up on me because You know You created me and You know the perfect plan for me, its just that I trust in You that You will tell me too.

    Thanks for creating me, loving me, nurturing me, taking care of me, redeeming me, for sending Jesus and redeeming me, dying for me, dwelling in me, shaping me, and finally I wait for Your glory and judgement. Truly I am unworthy and deserving all this but I really thank Thee.

Your loving son,

Shushant

Lesson from children

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I have shared with you before also that I struggle in being still. So every sunday I do something or other, so this sunday our church had Young couple's fellowship( A marriage seminar organised by our church) and I also went to K-22 our church office. No not for attending marriage counselling but to take care of children. To help Debbie, Madhavi aunty, Neelima di and Jacob bhaiya. Most interesting period and it was second time I was doing this activity voluntarily for church.

What's the catch? Have you heard if you want to learn, try teaching. Well I learned by observing. So this children were having pastries when I reached, quite peaceful time but soon the rush started when they started pushing each other, not eating pastry completely and started shouting water- water. Then Debbie told them story of Joseph. And as activity they had to make the Joseph's colorful coat. And it was fun to see how everyone made it but some were doing but after half they left others just didn't wanted to do the same. And then we moved to story telling, there same thing was repeated. And we kept on shouting to make them quiet. We tried telling whoever will do good will get chocolate and all tricks just to keep them engaged. Every minute we have to keep eye on them, keep on repeating same mistake and we kept trying and trying and shouting and guiding them. Not only the motive was to keep them engaged but also to keep them safe from getting hurt.
And midst of all this I was observing them carefully and suddenly I started thinking what I can learn out of this and what should I observe. You know we learn a lot from observing. And the lesson that I learnt yesterday was we are like those small children and God the Father the guardian who is looking after us day and night without fail because He knows even for a minute if He stops looking at us everything will go haywire. And I really marvel at God and I always I think that how patient God is with me(us). When I was looking at those little children not listening to their teacher who was leading they were making so much of noise and doing whatever they want not paying attention not able to understand what's going on? I was just scratching my head and time and again patiently, compassionately tried my best with a smile and care tried to tell them that listen to teacher.
The hardest thing for a kid to do is to be quiet and listen and obey. Ah! They are hyperactive they want to do things, if nothing jumping here and there and hoping and popping, shouting and screaming, dancing and singing. So am I against any of this activity or a parent/teacher against any of this activity? No! but there is a time and place to do the right thing at right time. But they don’t want to listen to the guardian’s instruction,they will mess up things and go nowhere. And only thing to make this correct we have to shout loudly and when everyone is quiet and listening everything suddenly start falling in place and we enjoy everything one by one every activity; whether it is jumping, singing or dancing.( On other hand God don't shout on us but gently whisper in our ears).
Same is true in our lives we are energetic and enthusiastic and we have so many plans and so much strength and we must execute those plans and use our strengths somewhere. Now same here not all the activities are wrong and not even the intentions but whats wrong is the order and priority we often mess up in this area. And I am sure you must have experienced this in your lives too that when you exhaust every single plan and broken you go to God (Head Guardian) and you surrender everything under his feet and then you start listening to Him everything falls in place automatically. Only requirement in both the situations are same that we must be still and listen and act accordingly so that everything have a meaning. Be still and Know that I am God.(Psalm 46:10)

In their hearts humans plan their course, but the LORD establishes their steps.(Proverbs 16:9).Many are the plans in a person's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.(Proverbs 19:21) No matter how many plans and actions we sought its ultimately the purpose of Lord that shall be done. Then should we not stop and ask the Author and Perfector of faith and lives to guide us in His ways.....

Thankful Thursday: Thanksgiving letter

Dear Dad,
Bless you God. I love you and thank you for everything you have done for us. God I want to thank You for simple things in my daily life and everyday blessings that You have showered on us.

I want to thank you for giving us life and also redeeming us. And for calling us Your son. Thank you for the love we experience everyday and for beautiful family without whose support and kindness I will not be able to do anything. Thank You God for friends and church family and relationships. Thank You for the GCF picnic we went to Tau Devilal botanical garden. Also I am very thankful for Sunday on which I was able to spend time with Pamela, Ryan and Aveek and we celebrated Pam’s b’day.And then for the dinner we had at Deepu’s place and time spent with his family. Thank You God for wisdom and discernment You have given me so that I can chose the right thing at the right time. So that I know that I am made to worship You and for Your pleasure. God I am thankful to know that You delight in us.
Thankful for small everything like job, every day chorus and for cycle which is helping me to live healthy life. I am thankful for food that I get every day, homemade food spiced with lots of love from Mom; which is making fatter day by day. I am thankful for You have provided all my needs. Thank You for the Spiritual food Your Word by which we are blessed and we are alive and attentive towards You. Where will I get strength, love, joy, peace and hope but in You alone and in Your Words. Thank You for step by step guidance for each and everything.
I am thankful for BTCL. I am very thankful for my blog and also for other blogs I read in the world out on blogosphere there are so many stories to read and to give ear to. I am thankful that I am able to write and maintain the blog which is one of my major tasks I planned to do this year. Thanks for this entire list God that you have done for us.
Now my prayers God I want to thank You for keeping me from failing and giving me chance to walk with You. But I do not want to take any credit for this therefore want to praise You for same also I want to pray for coming days that I will walk closer with You. I pray for time management so that I can focus on the other tasks that I have decided for this year which are spending time with God (which includes reading Bible and BTCL assignments also) and secondly for my studies for BA. Dad I know I have not been serious about only one thing that is my studies its mid February but yet I have not yet started my studies properly.
God I want to pray for Ryan and Pamela as they are getting married soon; for their new life and smooth future. God also pray for a stranger who became friend Manoj with whom Aveek shared the good news. Praying for missionaries and ministries that You will give wisdom and strength for accomplishing the Your goals. A long letter but thanks for bearing with my complaints.

Thanking You
Your loving son,
Shushant

Growing in relationship

Dear Daddy,
Today I am writing from my daily struggle and what I am feeling and emotionally what I am going through. Today I want to really share what's going on!

I read too much and reflect a little and end up doing nothing. Taking a break and thinking about doing nothing. Nothing is more painful than doing nothing. What should I legitimately replace nothing with. I have struggled with issue of doing everyday. I am never satisfied with my doing no matter what I do?

All words jumbled here keeps me puzzled and end of the day unsatisfied? Then what must I do. I planned four major things to do this year and trying to do that. But somehow I am missing the main thing of my life which is spending some real time with God.By real time I mean intentional a quality quiet time with stillness of my mind. So today I want to write this letter for asking God to help me in this area first. As the scripture says in Matthew 6:33 “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well”. Interesting verse isn't it? We all know its mandate from You and walk according to Your will. But Dad I have gone astray in all the hustle bustle of life trying to perform rather than seeking Your face; I have made this journey wearisome. But the moment I am quiet and still and I reflect on You and Your Word my heart is rejuvenated  and I restore all my hope and my heart starts rejoicing in You. And I long for such moments and when I think of eternal life that You promised me, I just wonder how will it be? It will be combination of such small moments and only about You.
And interestingly I want to thank You for the new challenges like my job, relationship with family, responsibilities that You have added and financial pressure. My studies and BTCL in midst of all this storms I want to say no matter how much challenges I face its You who give me strength and I become more confident and courageous due to all this and really praise You. In all this I see Your loving hand  helping me to be peaceful and look towards You. I am amazed how You work through our imperfect lives towards perfect plan which You have planned. How nothing absolutely nothing comes between You and me in this journey. I really amazed with the faith I have in You. But when I read Your Word and understand that how much You love me everything else become so small that it looks worthless thinking and discussing about it. But God teach me to strive to grow in relationship with You because thats what I must do. I want to know You, know You more than ever I have known. I want to understand Your will so that I can work and do only what You love. As a father delights when son is willing to know about him and his business so do You feel right God. And as Your word says Draw closer to me and I will come near to you. (James 4:8) I am confident that You keep Your covenant but give me grace that I keep mine.

Your loving son,
Shushant

Thankful Thursday

     I am thankful for God created us. Thankful for His love. Thanks specially for forgiveness I have in Christ. Which gives me eternal hope and chance to rise up and say I will sin no more. I will draw closer to God again. I have failed Him everyday but I have got up everytime and never found Him loving me less. Time and again He told me that you cannot do this in your strength don't try to run away from sin in your strength just trust me and draw closer to me. I am thankful for the Cross on which my savior paid the ransom for my sins. Where Father forgave me and cleansed me with the precious blood of Christ.
I am thankful for the peace I have because of Prince of peace. That my soul is in rest in Him. That I am always confident and courageous under His wings. Thankful for I am free from sin and slave to no one.Thankful for God is the provider and I don't have to worry about anything. Thankful because His plans are greater than my. Thankful for meaning and purpose bigger than me. Thankful for His grace, love and fellowship. Thankful for my Church and leaders who are committed to help me and to guide me. Thankful for wonderful friends who are always fighting with me, loving me and making my days memorable everyday. Thankful for the small happiness I get from drawing, playing, chatting, cycling and working and writing. Thankful for all the love, mercy and grace that you shower on us.What are you thankful for.