Spiritual Adultery

        Often many times I have found myself forgetting that I am a spiritual being having a body and not body having a spirit. And therefore I manifest and live according to desires of my flesh. I try not bother think that my choices will not make temporary consequence but every choice holds an eternal consequence. Every action I take can be against or for God.

We human think of adultery as worst kind of sin in physical sense and try to avoid every single possibility towards it. But I dont think God looks that way, He must be concerned about His relationship with us. Look at our lives what is the source of our Love, Joy, Peace and all things if it is not God be assured we are committing spiritual adultery we have exchanged God with something else. I think that's the greatest danger of our lives exchanging God with temporary things, sometimes it can be His blessings, His creation, His gifts and sometimes just that our small vision for temporary gain can take away that first position of our life.

How do you know that you are away from God? Ha! I cant tell you this? This is the question where best answer is yours. We all who know this Living God through Jesus Christ we know the indwelling of Holy Spirit will guide us and tell us when we are moving out this relationship. We have tasted how God is. Can we not tell when we are rebelling against Him. It is the time when you dont praise Him without blessings. When your eyes are not set upon Him for each and every step. When you make your own plans rather depending upon and listening to Him. When your actions are not for His glory but for your own. When we keep sinning without repentance and seeking way out of it. When we continue doing so, when our source of joy is changed. When the whole focus is on satisfying the desires of flesh and not being bothered about spirit.

Sometimes the whole list becomes like dos and donts in our lives. But you know the most important thing we miss during this situation is that love relationship with Daddy God for which we are made. Life become bitter and love dies. Because remember Love is not momentary commitment its every day. God loves us everyday and want to have fellowship with us. And love like communication cannot be one way; we must respond to His love. And Jesus said if you love me you will obey me. We are children of light are we living in light ?

Crying for help...

Dear Daddy,

I am sorry for being away from You and not writing letters regularly. No, I am not here to give any excuse for me nothing is more important than You and Your love. If I have committed my life to You should I not live the life accordingly listening to You. I am not tuned and I am not listening I was behaving like the rebellious kid again, but soon I have realized I can't stay far from You and  remain joyful. Soon I lost enthusiasm in materialistic things; I was busy chasing some perishable things. I have given excuse of busyness and tied myself to work and other things but I forgot that if You are in control do I need to worry about them. Who gives me joy, strength, wisdom to live this life, for whom do I live. I am a kid and sometime(most of the time) I want to do something new and hurt myself, I am not saying I shouldn't be doing something new but I should definitely consult You, because You know best for me and have plans for me. I am very short sighted but I have faith in You and Your plans and I know You have planned it well.

So the above statements brings me to this conclusion that I should be spending more time with You everyday, need discipline and to give priority to You. But that too I cannot do without You. So I pray that You will guide me, help me in doing this. That You will remind me to seek You. That You will open my eyes and let me see the path You want me to walk. That You will give me wisdom to choose right thing at right time. That You will satisfy all my needs. That I can sing Psalm 23 everyday joyfully. That I will meditate on Your word and gain wisdom and life. That I will give You praise day and night without ceasing. That I can hide Your word in my heart that I will not sin against You. Teach me and be with me always that by my ways You will be glorified. That I will not go astray but as an obedient son always walk in righteous way.

The time I have not followed You, I have failed, failed miserably but we live by faith and get up and seek Your face again. And in Your mercy and grace we have just found Your unconditional love and have not thought about the wrath. But we know we have not seen the wrath because Your Son Jesus have paid for our sins completely and because of Him alone we are forgiven. I don't want to misuse the grace and live a sinful life. God I know You love me abundantly my prayer is just that help me to overcome all my problems and seek Your face in all circumstance.

Your disobedient and unfaithful son,

Shushant

Mummy my Super Hero

Today I want to tell you about my best companion on earth after God in this journey. One who brought me to this earth, one who took all the pain and difficulty, who gave up her life for my better upbringing. One who loves me endlessly and selflessly. I know you all must be thinking yes same is with our moms but my Mom is really special for me, as I said my Super hero, my love, one who is always standing beside me. Not only in the times of success and praise but some of the most vulnerable times of my life.

Mom, Rohan(my brother) and Me

My father passed away when I was two and half years old and it was a very short period my Mom stayed with Dad. And my Dad was not a very rich guy, nor was he middle class man I would say he use to live a hand to mouth life and use to work in a small factory. I have never dared ask too many questions about him, perhaps I never felt the vacuum for him because my mom loves me a lot. Also there are other reasons. But to give a background my mom also comes from a poor family and her dad passed away before she got married. And she have a background of various kind of diseases as she felt sick when she was small and which also affected her academia and she is not that qualified but she have passed Eighth class. And mind you she is very smart at least more than me hehe ;-) And she was a only a homemaker a very good cook, interested in stitching, sewing, knitting and all type craft work including painting and working on small electrical gadgets and stuff.But she always stayed at home and was a housewife, she fell ill when my dad passed away. And we moved my granny’s place after that started staying with them. And my mom was unfortunately forced to work for living. I was her only son by then.

She started going in hunt of job and she knew stitching so worked with some export companies and then my mom is daughter of a goldsmith so she have that blood running in her nerves and thats what her parents family business was. And she started working with MNC making jewelery for export purpose. She became a professional and had too she didn't have any other choice. And she lived all alone many times shifted rooms from time to time and place to place like a migrant we have to go from places to places because of work changing frequently and I always wondered why she have to change the jobs so frequently and later when I grew up she tells me stories of those days and I have no answers but I just wonder how she did this and how she bore all this all alone. She is gigantic figure taking the whole burden of pain on her. So what all she went through don't ask its a full list of blunders some times company was fraud, other times managers were fraud, sometimes there were people who blamed her, sometimes it was strangers who tried to take advantage of a widow thinking that her state of being helpless demands for that, sometimes it was not from strangers but from family members who doubted her motives and just mocked her everytime. I tell you when I look into her eyes I see the anguish and the pain she carried for year after years and not even letting me know all this.

She was unstoppable inspite of all this blunders everyday in her life I know she earned as low as Rs.1000 per month and most of the months also went jobless so you can imagine how horrible it was. I have seen her staying in a room where we use to lie down and our heads were touching to one wall and feet to another. But yet we had to live, this life was not easy for her. And yet he gave the best for me and he chose the most difficult but if you see for me the best solution, she send me to a boarding school, very far to a state which I never imagined and never thought when I was just about seven years. I was very small and I had a major problem adjusting in new land but we were compelled to do this as there was no option. Because the private schools demanded a huge fees and government schools were not worth it.

But she worked day and night sometimes overtime and without leaves she worked so that I can study well and perform well. So that I will get better education, food and knowledge in the boarding school, she chose something that was very difficult not only monetary wise but also as decision because my other relatives were strictly against this. There also my mom went through a lot of pain as she was criticized for her decision. As she got to hear from her own sister and brother that “you have sold your son to someone just to live freely”. Thats something when I got to know really broke my heart. But in this process even I was broken and many times I blamed her a lot and thought she loves me little and if you have read my selfmade man you know me how I became.

But honestly as its said the sweet tree bears sweet fruit, characters and your worldview is shaped by the environment you live and mostly by your parents so there are many good and as well bad things which I have learned from her. Till day I look up to her for most of the things.( I said most because you know I am a bit crazy, stubborn and Godly man too so some decisions I do take myself and with help of God) May it be decision of clothing, electronic, food, style, decisions,roads, places, bargaining, medical, ayurveda, plants, cooking, drawing, arts and monetary she is the best person to consult with(In short she is my encyclopedia). She is really my hero. Many of you must have thought in your childhood which superhero you will become may be spiderman, he-man, batman, superman or gi joe but I always, always wanted to become a simple person just like my mom is. You know what is the proudest moment of my life when someone says to me that “you are just like your mom”. I can't tell you what does it mean to me. I know all our shortcomings we have most of the things in common may it be fear of something, may it be confidence, may it be simplicity, may it be bearing something. Many things we do are similar and we are best friends, we like to spend time together and I really praise God for my mother for real love in my life through her.She is not only my friend but my love, my father, my sister, my teacher, my guide she is all in one. I have the greatest support, greatest gift in my life is my mother.We are such good friends that I share everything with her, she loves me so much and never condemns me therefore I can even share my failures without fear. She knows everything, even about my relationships which I had in past. I just can't hide things from her.I know and remember when I shared that I failed and I lost my cycle and also a dog bite it was moment where I was so depressed that I thought a mountain of problems came upon me but she came quietly and never shouted on me for that. She said “exam must be very tough I know you studied day and night yet you failed but don't worry do better next time”. And there are n number of things which I did in wrong way yet my mom supported me and loved me.

She is really adorable and lovely, strong, courageous, hardworking, honest, clever and smart, simple person whoever have met her will tell you the same.And I am not just bragging but she is really the most inspiring and loving person of my life. I love her lot and give thanks to the lord for her life. She believed in living God that was turning moment for both of us where we believed in Jesus and now both of our lives are changed by God. His touch have changed us, brought us closer to God and restored joy in our lives. Praise to God alone for his love and care and providence.

Definitely there is a lot to this story but as time I have written enough. I pray for well being of all Moms on this Mother’s day.

Confession...

Today I want to tell you about my struggles I mostly try to hide it but not today maybe some other day. Yes I am a Christian and I love God but does it mean I am sinless, no in fact I want to let you know before knowing Christ I even didn't know what is Sin. I was in darkness and I was blind how can I know I am wrong if I have no idea what wrong is. What if I always thought that darkness is light.

But now I know God and He gave me new life and gave me new eyes, I am not blind anymore I can see and understand right and wrong in reflection of His light, with help of His Word and I know what sin is. But knowing sin or understanding it doesnt solve the problem. We have to struggle everyday to sin less. As one my friend wrote in a blog that we can't be sinless but can we sin less. But what if I try and every time fall short and commit sin again and again. But what can we do, should we take God as granted or give up everything in God’s hand and look for His help. Knowing well that I cannot handle this in my own strength I give the full control to God. Ya its hard and difficult but only thing after failing and going through guilt trip I console myself by knowing well that God is sovereign and in full control therefore no matter how many times I fail He still loves me and is willing to forgive me.

I know you must be thinking what is this and why am I sharing this with you. One is I confessing my sins to God before everyone because I want to repent genuinely and let you all guys know that I am a sinner, a failure but still I rely on God’s mercy and grace and Jesus loves us. No matter what wrong we have done, He is willing to help us. He came to save us from sin. And we can sin less if we keep each other accountable and the best thing about Christianity I don't have to pretend. I accept my weakness and ask God to help when I am struggling with the battle of spirit and flesh.

Modern Healthcare a blessing or a curse?

Below article is written under "How does Modern Healthcare touch lives?" with an initiative from Apollo Hospitals(http://www.apollohospitals.com/cutting-edge.php) and IndiBlogger. And I am thankful to both of them to give a platform to write about such topic I hope you will take some time to  read this.

Health Care have always been a great studies and a mainline stream on which many of us depend. And its a vast topic and really benefited each one of us and every one of us in some or other area. We know from history and past experience of Medical journey that how modern healthcare have helped in overall growth of human health. How the society depends upon the doctors and medical science everyday from very common cold to heart transplant. Not only healthcare institutes and research goes everyday and helped to eradicate deadly diseases.

source: http://www.apollohospitals.com/

Many scientists have dedicated their lives towards finding new cures to deadly diseases, we humans are endlessly working towards making this life disease free and problem free. Modern healthcare is like a genie who is working to fulfill wishes of common man everyday. Healthcare is the basic requirement for survival, we have heard the phrase “survival of the fittest” if thats true Modern healthcare works towards making everyone fit that no-one is left out and we walk and hand in hand with everyone that no one looks down on someone else because some physical handicap or have some disease.

Healthcare and medical science not only have saved many lives from deadly diseases but also brought revolution in our country. It have thrown light on every aspect of human body and its pain and suffering. Specially in our country like India where there was a blind faith and some false practices of considering some deadly diseases as curse of god or they associated it with some kind of false spirituality. Many cures of deadly disease have solved and it have not saved few lives but communities and many lives. Disease in which people were assumed to be outcast and untouchable, for example leucoderma was considered a deadly disease once upon a time and people suffering from it were declared untouchable and they were the outcast from the society it took a lot of research in finding actual cause of the disease and to fight with it and also lots of awareness for it. Smallpox and chickenpox was traditionally considered a disease from some deity and we thought its natural and it will go by itself but few times it left adverse effects on the patients and many cases people died but later vaccination and other medical measures were discovered and implemented and we are very well aware of it.

And similarly many diseases are plaguing us day and night and modern healthcare fights both at primary level and also looks for prevention of it for example precautions for diseases like whooping cough and polio we are given vaccination in advance and vaccination against rabies are readily available at village level as well. And well we have great news like our country becoming polio free nation. And such many innovations have saved and touched millions of life knowingly and unknowingly.

I was also recently thinking about life of physically handicapped people but thank God for modern health care that they have come up with such surgeries they make a new pair metallic attachment as false feet or hands and the patient becomes as normal as we are and if you want an example a very good example is Paralympics which is more than a proof for us that physically handicapped people can also enjoy life normally.

Now the latest medical science and healthcare have reached to a level where most remote parts of body, and most complicated joints, nerves, cells, fluids are studied and they are working to repair and replace it with others. Were eye donation and blood donation and heart,kidney, liver transplantation are no longer impossible things. The modern science is really a blessing for mankind and saving millions of lives everyday. Now I was checking this Apollo hospitals modern facilities from where I got to write about modern healthcare as the website http://www.apollohospitals.com/cutting-edge.php gives a list of things which I thought was impossible it was an eye opener for me I thought it was just in news and only in developed countries but thank God its for real and available in our own country.

But as much as modern healthcare is a blessing for mankind it can be turned and in some areas already turned as curse for mankind. Though its not totally fault of healthcare but of the motives of humans involved in it. As hellish as abortion it can be used to save a pregnant lady but when it came to India it killed so many lives and now we see activists running with big posters to stop abortion. Infants are killed every day, not one or two but thousands and thousands everyday. where modern healthcare coming up pills for anything and everything making humans more lazy and not giving preventive but post diseases cures only. Challenging the nature itself many times, challenging the design of how God created it. For example the modern science have come up with sex change operations; I have no clue how they do that but its for real. They are coming up with having test tube babies without using the natural process (as much as it have helped but there is a lot of debate how men are misusing it). When modern healthcare gave us options of heart, kidney, liver transplant options; many evil minded came up with idea of human trafficking and taking out their body parts and selling it at very high price.Think of it we humans have become commodity just like animals and other environment. At one side the scientist who came up with this theory and process they thought they will save lives but here its on the cost of others lives.There are scientists working on bio-chemicals for good and there are terrorist who are using it for ammunition for mass destruction. It's as simple as this no matter how great the blessings is when human are handling it they mostly misuse it for selfishness, greediness, for self gain.

So at the end I would say God have given this great blessing of modern healthcare let us thank Him and use this blessing wisely and not rebelling against Him forgetting Him and challenging Him by misusing this precious gift of life and health care.